Awhile back, I wrote about what happens when your sense of ambition fades away: when your ego, that desperate “TO DO” voice in your head no longer has any influence on you. It’s a common experience for many on the path. It sounds blissful, but in reality it can be uncomfortable when your personal will fades out and there is very little motivation to “do” anything. It’s weird and a little unsteady.
Well, today I had an inspiring conversation with a friend. He is in a deep egoless place, and yet is profoundly affected by something deep inside, passionately wanting expression.
He was sharing with me that when he hangs out in the non-dual/spiritual crowd, everyone seems to summarize this drive, or “purpose”, as something purely egoic, and they kind of shut the conversation down there. I think a lot of non-dual teachers disengage from the conversation around purpose in order to drive home the very delicate and necessary teaching of no separate self. I understand the need for this, because separate self or ego can be so subtle, and seeking purpose from there will always come to a dead end. Ego’s drive is never going to lead one to peace, so these teachers tend to keep the message about purpose simple. And from this reference point, it’s not something that needs a lot of focus; it just fades out and then kind of finds a more natural expression.